I will not pity you...
I'm not going to try to talk you out of it...
Much less I would like to make a list of motivational phrases……….. Total, they will not help you at all.
We should all own our destiny. Although we are not sure, since it is not easy to decide how to end and at what moment.
Don't listen to them, don't listen to the egoists who try to persuade you, just so they don't suffer. They prefer your suffering to theirs.
But before making the decision, I want you to think if the desire to die was born from you and is not someone else's idea.
Don't think about who will be sad if you die. Think about who will laugh if you do. Who will take advantage of your absence.
Maybe you want to please and have a good laugh to that person who, somehow, convinced you to do it. Don't think about those who will cry. Don't just rejoice over those you think will. Either way, you won't be able to see them when it does. There is a further possibility that they did not.
Before you make the decision, there is something that I can assure you: the sorrows will pass, the problems and the feelings will go away.
If you decide to continue, I can swear that you will be happy again. Then you will feel sadder again and you will suffer again. Maybe you will look at the precipice again and play on the edge of it wondering. Maybe the feeling will return. In a while you will flirt with death again and then you will be happy again. Until the simple idea returns and so it will continue for the rest of your life,
Until the day death remembers you and hopefully, in your last breath, you will not beg for a little more life.
I'm not going to tell you that the only eternal thing is death because I'm not sure about it either.
You can decide. Perhaps you will wish to know what it is to silence your demons.
But you really have to understand that if you decide to go on, those demons will come back and go again. I want you to truly understand that this is how it is and how it will always be.
Before making the decision, know that this can be the consequence of an illness, intermittent, discontinuous and sporadic, painful, as much as a migraine that comes and goes.
I want you to know that there is no person who has not thought about this that haunts you so much today until you fall asleep. We have all survived the feeling, the pain and the emptiness.
If you make the decision, do it.
But if you've talked about this with someone, if you wait a year, if you're still dreaming, if you're still here, it just means that deep down you don't want to do it.
There is only one thing that I do want to convince you of: if you do it, it is not out of fear, nor because you believe that there is nothing else here for you today, nor ever, I want you to do it because you do not want to apologize to anyone, nor will you ask for forgiveness, because you don't long for things to be different, or because you don't have plans, or because there really is no escape. There is no guilt for what you feel, because you don't hate, because you don't feel grudges, or because you keep nostalgia or hope.
Because you don't see the need to thank everyone who made you smile, who supported you, who was by your side.
Only then can you do it and leave in peace.
